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As of late, I am finding it hard to focus. My motivation for doing anything seems less and less apparent. I still manage to get up in the morning, and get to the gym, and get my laundry done, but I keep wondering why. Lately, my sole reason for going to class is “because I like physics” but this fails when it comes time to do homework. I havent had a creative idea in weeks and haven’t made anything that can be called artwork. Havent even generated any memorable quotes.

And to my rescue came Warcraft III.

One might think that playing video games would cause your brain to rott and that your abilities to think analytically or creatively would dwindle into nothing, but this was quite the jumpstart I needed to break the summer depression/block. Suddenly, life seems fun again, I see things when I close my eyes and hear music when there is only silence. Strategy and urgency combined with fantasy and fiction are the perfect cure for the hypnotic drudgery of Philadelphia.

Its a shame all my new-found good ideas are sitting stagnant as I play Warcraft like it was my job…

I really ought to make more entries. So last weekend I had my family reunion…funny how similar everyone is even though we have never met. Strange in a way, but at least I met some cousins who we could bond with and point out how corny our respective parents and grandparents are. Unfortunately, the cycle will repeat itself in 30 years or so.

Yesterday, I ate such crap: a chocolate eclair ice cream, a pint of mint chocolate chip from Wawa, some sesame chicken with rice and eventually some apple cobbler. I think I had a power bar too somewhere in there. But I also went to lift weights and to dance class, so I burned a good deal of calories…

Spent last night at a Jam Session at Ortleib’s Jazz Haus, by far the coolest spot in Philly, but not temperature-wise. While the music was cool enough to freeze a campfire, we were sweating ourselves thing just sitting there. I had to quickly order some apple cobbler to regain energy.

Summer is a great time except for one thing….class. Of all the places I want to be during summer, class is not one of them, and the sad part is, I actually like class [except fluids]. I keep talking about this but its so true, classes just cut into my leisure time and cartoon watching. I hate missing Yu-Gi-Oh! and Pokemon, I am so lost when my watching resumes….

How is it legal to call me at home, on my home phone and play me a recording. And whats worse, they don’t even do their research…how many college students actually have the money, or are concerned enough to invest in final burial expenses. Maybe some of those goth-type kids who hang by the college of design arts and don’t really do anything aside from drugs, but not me. Goddamn.