Its nearly 1 am and yet I am still awake. I don’t think the two cups of instant coffee, or the fact that I napped through rugby practice, really is keeping me up, its something else. It would seem odd that I, a young, active, healthy, and relatively-stressles individual would have trouble sleeping, even for open-ended mornings where my first class was not until 11 or so. Whatever, it just something I will have to get over – force myself back into a normal sleep cycle, and maybe quite coffee before bed.
I spoke to Lyndsey Vader the other day. Figured I’d call her on her birthday, having not talked with her literally in several years. In retrospect, I dunno why I called her, we never have anything interesting to say to one another and no matter how she fains interest, she cares not for my day-to-day nor will speak with me about any of her life issues which carry any significance. The odd thing, is that I don’t really care either, and I would only speak with her on a valid emotional or intellectual level if she asked me to – which she never will.
I wish I had a really awesome memory. I wish I could memorize the whole of Hamlet and recall lines and scenes at will, just for amusement of others and to prove points and end arguments and that sort of thing. I wish I could memorize the phone number of everyone I meet or even remember the name of random people who appear for brief moments in the sequence of one-act plays I call my life. Some of them don’t even have lines, yet I remember them, most of them anyway, but rarely does the name stick. I also wish I knew Latin so I could teach my friends and then we could say things in public without worrying about others hearing us and getting offended, or butting into our conversation. Its a cool language too.
Unfortunately, books on memory and Latin cost more than I can afford and take more time to read than I can spare. One would employ the use of logic at this point and suggest I save my money, buy the books and read them during spells of insomnia. That would make sense, but in practice, not so much.
“…and in this sleep of death, what dreams may come…”